Today was the most awaiting seminar,
I was waiting for this opportunity for so long,
Slogged in day and night,
But today I could not go there.
I am in my last days of pregnancy,
The heat distance, the heat and travelling only make it worse,
In front of my eyes,
I shattered my own dreams,
Yet I put up a brave smile.
I am a mother, wife and everyone else,
Before I am me,
Probably that is the reason why,
Every opportunity lost is just fine.
Concentrate on your children,
They need you the most,
Friends and family say,
Deep inside my heart, I bleed everyday.
Yes children are my first priority,
But did you forget that my career was also born out of me,
I nurtured it the way I nurture my children,
Alas, it’s only me who remembers that.
If I share my feelings,
I am termed as cranky,
In the name of being strong,
I put up that brave smile.
To fit into the stereotypical mould of perfection,
Without being judged,
In the eyes of every soul I know,
I end up crushing my dream.
For the world,
I am a woman, who had skills and could have done better,
I am a woman, who doesn’t take care of her children,
I am a woman, who is strong and independent and. doesn’t need anyone.
I am a Phoenix, who rose from the ashes.
Try and look beyond me,
Don’t judge me or be prejudice,
For I wear a strong outercoat,
To protect my children from this harsh world,
Because they would be judged for my actions.
Today I lost another opportunity,
But I am not sad,
Because it just happens,
When you loose millions of opportunity,
You learn to make the best out of what you have.